living my life...: March 2005

Sunday, March 27, 2005

ten years...

... is too long. it's almost been 15. i miss my cousin alan.

Thursday, March 17, 2005

they found me...

isabel...

cer...

bulit...

dani...

no one was supposed to know. but they found me...

argh.

gotta find a way to escape...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

beach memories...

sigh... i wanna go back...

i dream...

i dream...

needless to say, i dream a lot about my life.

i dream of travelling the world the way i used to. i dream about going to the perfect beach. i dream of being able to live there. i dream of getting a job i really love doing. i dream of getting my own car of my choice. i dream of starting my own business. i dream of that venture being successful. i dream of being able to sing my heart out for a crowd of thousands. i dream of them being eager to hear me sing.

i dream of getting rid of my past. i dream of being confident about my future. i dream of having people no longer see me as a screw-up. i dream of having people actually be proud of me. i dream of having people like me. i dream of not even having to try. i dream of someday being able to live without any masks. i dream of, someday, not being ashamed of who i am.

i dream of having friends who will stick to me despite of who i really am inside. i dream of having friends who would love to spend time with me as much as i do love to spend time with them. i dream of having a dad at home. i dream of having a mom who cares. i dream of having an older brother i look up to. i dream of having a younger brother who will see me as his hero. i dream of having a complete family. i dream of having a happy home.

i dream of meeting the girl who will take my breath away. i dream i will take hers away as well. i dream of being able to love her with all that i am. i dream of having her love me the same way i love her. i dream of having her marry me. i dream of us always being in love. i dream of us having the most beautiful and adorable kids. i dream of being an awesome dad who they would love and be proud of.

i dream of someday meeting my Creator face to face. i dream of Him holding me safe in His arms. I dream of Him loving me just for me. I dream of staying like this forever.

i dream... so much.

makes me wonder how much of these dreams will actually become reality.

Sunday, March 06, 2005

hmmm...

hmmm...

i'm not really the blogging type.
although i do like to write.
i'm not really sure what i'm gonna do with this blog.
but we'll see.
i just might get the hang of this...

living my life...