happy thanksgiving...
happy thanksgiving...i know that it's a day or two late (i'm not too sure because i've never really celebrated it before), but i would nevertheless want to greet ya'll a happy thanksgiving... especially to those family and friends of mine who live in a primarily american culture.i spent most of the afternoon, yesterday, helping out dani's cousin, margarita, shop for our thanksgiving dinner tonight. meaning shopping for turkey, cranberry sauce, corn meal, pumpkin pie (at least the ingredients), etc. she's an american on vacation here... she insisted on having one... she's paying for everything... so who were we to stop her? a free meal's a free meal... hehehe...so to alan, carlo, joey, ninong dindo, christopher, all my other relatives from the west... as well as to eeshee, roni, ben and nicole (do canadians even celebrate thanksgiving? i'm not too sure...), happy thanksgiving...here's a turkey... or two for ya'll... take your pick. enjoy.
fine...
fine...
for the first time, i'm finally making my blog public knowledge to my friends... but i had to edit some things and take out some (most actually... heehee) of my posts to preserve my dignity and make it acceptable for public consumption. so don't mind if there are a lot of weird gaps between posts. hehehe... so there.
i hate html...
i hate html...
yipee... my blog's got a new look! it doesn't look like most of the other blogspot blogs i see anymore. thanks to saul's link to blogfrocks and to mikel's help in at least giving me a slight idea of how html works, my blog actually looks... hmmm... a bit unique! hahaha. i tweaked (via trial and error) the codes a bit though, just to make the site template a bit more to my liking.but don't get me wrong... i still hate html. maybe someday i'll get the hang of it... and maybe even learn to like it. we'll see.now... on to figure out how to allow comments on this new template...
i finally fixed my room...
i finally fixed my room...
yep... after... let's see... 2 years of not organizing my room in any way, i've finally gotten over my procrastination and lethargic behavior and put into concrete action what i've been aching to do: a room makeover.
i know it sounds gay and all... but believe me, once you see what i've done with it, you will not be able to help but say "good job!" obviously, i'm proud of my little side project... so sue me... heehee...
so what did i do? t'was simple really.
first of all, i moved (or asked the maids to do so... don't you just love househelp!?!) all my stuff out of my room. and i mean all! i then went over all my stuff and segregated all the stuff i needed/wanted, the junk i was gonna throw away and the other useful stuff that i could give away to people who wanted them. after that, i had all my stuff cleaned and wiped and i slowly moved them back into the room.
prior to that, however, i made major area changes in my room. nothing too complicated, though. i just moved my bed upstairs, moved my pc downstairs on to my desk (where it rightfully belongs anyway), got my couches, tables and other furniture from the genrev office and fixed my first floor into a pseudo-living room. i got the extra "sometimes-working-sometimes-not" 27 inch tv from the family room and placed it in there too along with my gigantic pillows.
of course, i also spiced my room up with my countless pictures and frames, small sentimental collections, my boxes of cds and dvds, books (including my calvin and hobbes collection), yada, yada, yada...
man, don't i seem like one of those guys from queer eye? oh well... bottom line is, it's organized, it's clean and it's cool. i'm lovin' my room right now. so deal...
brothers...
brothers...
mix, joey and i finally met up today.i was a bit anxious, yes, but as the time we spent together went, it turned out that there wasn't anything for me to be worried about after all. needless to say, it went pretty well.as i mentioned in my earlier post, mix arrived earlier than expected, catching me still drooling on my pillow. so after i brought him home, i went home to dress up and then picked joey up (which, i swear, took me an hour to do... damn the UP traffic!). when i finally got to his house, he invited me to go inside and meet his mom. reluctantly, i obliged and was greeted not just by his mom but also his whole clan! grandma, tita, tito, pinsans, etc. man, was i freakin' out inside! all eyes were on me and i wasn't sure what they were thinking. geez. i felt like a freak show... it was so awkward!anyhow, after what seemed like an eternity, we finally left their house and went on to pick mix up. of course i had to gas the car up first. i explained to joey that if i didn't, mix would blow my head off. heehee. after gassing the car up we went straight to mix's house where he and joey laid eyes and met each other for the first time.*tear*t'was cool actually, there wasn't any of those awkward silences at all. we then went on our way to pancake house katipunan. of course it's a given that we ordered and ate and talked and all that, so i won't bother writing about those stuff anymore. it was just so surreal that we were having our first meal together with our long lost little brother that mix and i had never met until this week. after our brunch, mix and joey both went out for a couple of smokes. i purposely volunteered to stay inside and pay for the bill. i wanted them to have some alone time together to talk and get to know each other. and they did. it was awesome to see them together talking and getting along so darn well.*tear*after a while, they came back in and we took our stuff and went out. as i waited for danielle to drive by with the cam that i was borrowing to at least have our first pic together, they smoked a couple of sticks and chatted even more (about what, i have no idea). when dani finally arrived (after what seemed like forever), we exchanged cordial "hi there" smiles with her and tito tats and got the cam. then off we went to the lina's house. ceres was the designated photographer. hehehe. it was a good thing, ceres had her mini dv cam with her, isel's damn camera wouldn't work. then came our first ever pic together as brothers.*tear*so after taking our first ever pic together (where joey also met his cousins, pipo and cer for the first time), we then went to mix's pad where we hung out, talked, and gave our kuya some "love" advice... hahaha... geez. mikki was pretty off that day not to mention extra high-strung. i guess he was tired from work, so i just told joey to be patient with mix and that he wasn't normally like that. joey didn't even care... he was just so happy and caught up with the fact that he was actually with his brothers. i guess so were all of us.*tear*at about 2 pm, we had to leave (since joey had a soccer game at dlsu at 3 and i had to go to the ecr to get my stuff from the genrev hq). we drove joey to the lrt station and reluctantly said our goodbyes, did our manly, brotherly hugs and promised to meet up again sometime very soon. so that's the story.i don't really have any profound insights or some thought provoking realizations about our rendezvous and i know that this entry has no sense of coherence at all, just thoughts mentioned in chronological order (sans any creative mumbo jumbos...), but i just can't help but be thankful and happy that joey's in our life. in my life. who could've thought that the little brother that i'd been looking for for the past 10 years would actually be hanging out with both of his kuyas? looking at mikki and the way he acted towards joey was also definitely something. i don't really know how to articulate it, but i know that he knew that joey knew that all of three of us knew that everything was cool and that everything was gonna be okay. there wasn't really anything that needed to be said. we just knew.we were happy. we were together. and we were... nay... are brothers. i guess miracles still do happen.
mikki was early...
mikki was early...
it's 9:11 am. i just woke up.
i'm still pretty tired and groggy from last night's movie shooting (which finished at about 2 am) in pampanga with the naima boys, and needless to say, i got home pretty late. although i must commend jr for pulling off that impressive 45 minute drive from san fernando to xavierville. i'm sure he was breaking a few traffic laws while doing so, but i never really got to witness it since i was sleeping the entire ride. oh well...
anyway, mikki and i will be having our first brother get-together with joey today and i'm pretty stoked (and nervous) to say the least. i'm sure it's all gonna go well, but still, there's that pessimist in me somewhere inside that scares the crap out of me by running worst case scenarios about our long overdue reunion in my head... over and over again. damn those scenarios.
however, a peculiar thing happened just now that sort of made my day a little brighter. mikki was early. not that it's a big deal and all that (maybe it is), but i just wasnt expecting him to be the one making me kulit about our schedule in meeting up with joey. we agreed last night on 9:30 am being our rendezvous time. he would drop me the car, and i would pick joey up and so on. he came at 9:00 am... half an hour earlier... i was still sleeping.
i'm still a bit rattled right now (the kind you get when you are suddenly forced out of deep slumber) but, nevertheless, pleasantly surprised. i thought i was the only one in my family who was excited and anxious to get in touch and reunite with joey... at most, i feared, mikki and dad were just a bit curious but more of indifferent to the news. But mikki being early dashed those fears (at least for his end) and made me happy that i wasnt the only one longing for a reconnection with my long lost little brother. thank god for that.
now, its getting a bit late and i have to get dress up and pick joey up by 10:00 am. im still a bit anxious about how things will go, but it's a good thing mikki was early... and seemingly excited (he was a bit pushy that i hurry up). at least now i know that i'm not the only one.
so much has happened...
so much has happened... i can't believe it's actually been 5 months since the last time i posted an entry here. well, i guess for the past 2 or so months, i've been rather busy fussing over my multiply site. but nevertheless, it's been a long time... and to think so much has already happened since. i'll try my best to recount everything that's transpired since my last entry (or at least the ones i wanna put here) in my succeeding entries...
it's just that i've done so many things, including meeting my long lost younger brother, something that i've been dreaming of for the longest time, for the first time... since then. moreover, i've met so many great people, had deep and penetrating conversations and gotten close to a few of them as well. sadly, i've also seemingly drifted away (whether deliberately or not) from a few old ones too. there were so many firsts, so many lasts (possibly), so many highs, so many lows, so many moments of confusion, so many times of clarity... yada, yada, yada... that it confuses me and leaves me not knowing where and how to start. oh well... "one step at a time" is always a good and reliable plan, so i guess that's what i'll do so as to not overwhelm myself. i just have this tendency to want to do everything.. talk about everything... think about everything at the same time that it just leaves me paralyzed and not able to do anything at all (see what i mean... my point exactly)... tsk tsk tsk...
pipes just called and he's dropping by in a few... which means, if i want this blog of mine to remain a secret (at least it's url), then i better publish this as soon as i can and hide... hehehe...
anyway... here's a pic for ya'll (whoever "ya'll" actually are) that sorta defines where i am now... spreading and stretching my wings, trying and learning to fly...
