the little boy is back... in school...
the little boy is back... in school...as my entry title says... yes... i'm finally back in school! and not just that... in regular school. and not just any regular school... but i'm finally an atenista once again. it's been a noisy, tiring but nevertheless fun week for me. a week that was filled with orsem, orsem and orsem, freshman registration, guidance tests, meeting a plethora of new people, being lucky enough to belong to blocks that i really get along with (so far...) and as of today... the first day of school!it's been really great, i admit, despite the heat and the sweat that i've been having to bear. and embarrassing as it may sound, i can't seem to get this really big smile off of my face! gee.. i really feel so goofy! and more than just that... what's really weird is that i've actually been very giddy and giggly these past few days! there's no denying it. i'm a freshman in the ateneo... i'm loving it and i'm proud of it! hahaha...i guess, there's just something with new beginnings that just makes me excited. i guess i'm naturally outgoing and sociable and the prospect of meeting new people, experiencing new things, learning new ideas and discovering new worldviews just brings out the little boy in me. the little boy that's always been curious about everything around (not to mention getting into lots of trouble because of the said curiosity). sadly, he's been missing for quite some time now... off somewhere else i guess. but now, it seems like he's on his way home! awww... i feel like a little boy again!it's been a long time since i've actually felt like this. needless to say, it feels good... and it feels right.
*sigh*
it's so good to finally have the little boy back once again...
me and my block, a4...
so long, sabbatical...
so long, sabbatical...
a little over a year ago (may 30 to be exact), i, through my own volition, went through a year-long sabbatical. i had just been through a lot of stress, anxiety and trauma and i needed a very long break from everything... all the pressure, all the confusion, all the controversy and, not to mention, all the drama! i need not enumerate each occurrence and i don't want to go into detail about every single thing that was going on either, but the point is, i needed to get away from everything and, on my own, find out exactly where i stood... and from there, find out exactly where i wanted to stand.it's been a year and a week since i voluntarily broke away from everything and i feel and know that it's just about time for me to get back into the fray once again. not that i have a choice anyway. orsem's next week, school's gonna begin a week after and i can't get it out of my head that i'm gonna be a freshman soon. how weird is that. but then again, weird, unusual and unorthodox has always been standard for my life! what's new...but seriously now, i just wanna thank God for every single thing that happened this past year. i thank Him for allowing me to survive and even thrive in the lowest point i've ever been, and i thank Him for giving me the chance to be the highest and happiest i've ever been as well. i thank Him for having been given the chance to do things i never thought i could or would do and i thank Him as well for never letting me lose hope even in the direst of circumstances.more than just these, i would also like to thank Him for giving me the opportunity to meet so many new people, friends and brothers and sisters... people whose lives have changed and inspired me. awesome people who i know will be my friends for life. likewise, i am also filled with gratitude for having been given another chance to re-establish my relationships with long lost friends. those whose friendships, i thought, i would no longer have the privilege and honor of having. but thankfully i was wrong. i am grateful for a second chance, for forgiveness and for acceptance. i thank God for all you people. you know who you are... and i just want to thank all of you for being you.i know it's getting a bit long, overly dramatic and a tad too boring for ya'll but i just felt like these things needed to be said. actually, if you really knew me, you would know that there are still chapters upon chapters of things i still want to say... and that i could actually go on and on for hours (or pages) on end, but for the love of you all, i'll just end it here. heehee...*sigh*life indeed has been a life this past year. so cheers to my sabbatical. cheers to all that happened. cheers to all my friends and loved ones. i don't regret anything that happened. and if ever i do regret something, it would simply be that i wish i could've done more, seen more, discovered more... lived more. but then again, that's what the rest of my life is for...
